Another year

Assalamu'alaikum, fellow readers! Isn't today just wonderful? Smiles.
Alhamdulillah, all praises goes to Allah SWT, the ar-Rahman and ar-Rahim. May His mercy be upon us and may our love for Him not fade just like how His love for us will never cease. InsyaAllah...

I was cute during kindergarten eh? =P

It's 23rd of May, and it is my birthday. Alhamdulillah, Allah SWT has extended another year of my life and here I am, still breathing and still living, but now as a 20 year old. As a Muslim, I have no one else to thank to the most except Allah SWT. He has given me a life that I wish not to trade with others. A life that is full with tribulations, hardship, sorrows, pain, but with a mixture of joy, happiness, tranquillity and love. All these were given to me because Allah SWT still loves me (and every single one of us) and He gives me all these because He knows that every single one of it will bring benefits to me, for He knows more than we do. The only thing I've to do is to stay husnudzon and accept life as it is. Smiles.

There's going to be a difference in my birthday this year. This year, I'll resolved to bring a better change in my life. It's actually quite sad that another year has passed, but life hasn't changed much for me. Or in other words, I don't think I've been a better person throughout the year. And so, therefore, I resolved to do my very best to work even harder this year to make a change. 'Cause, you see... Being 20 isn't young any more. I finally realized now that what I really need to do is to grow up. And I will strive hard for it. Like what I told all my friends, no matter how much life will screw me up, I will not give up. I will stand up and strive again.

To me, I don't see or take birthdays as an occasion for us to celebrate, but rather, I see it as a day where we

20 year old me now =)

should do a full head-to-toe, inner and outer muhasabah in every aspect in our life. As for me, I see this year as a year where death is getting ever so near, and my contributions and my work in Islam isn't a satisfactory. In fact, you can say that it had made me feel a bit depressed lately by knowing of that truth. BUT, like I said, this phase of depression will not let me quit. In fact, I will use this chance to fully try and dig deep within me so that I can find my potential in achieving the success that I want, and also for the betterment of the Ummah.

Recently, I watched Aiman Azlan's first vlog, and what Aiman Azlan said in that vlog really intrigued me. Alhamdulillah, because of it, I finally realize what I can do, and what I can try : I can try to be active in the fields of journalism, blogging and writings again. To be honest, I had put aside my dream in becoming a writer ever since I entered college, thinking that since I'm taking counselling, I wouldn't be able to sharpen my skills, and I gave up on it. But, now... After 2 years in college, I begin to realize that what I really need in life is my contribution to society in the form of writings. And, I will sharpen my skills! I will, indeed!

# Alhamdulillah, and jazakumullah khayr to everyone who had wished me well on my birthday. I pray that Allah SWT will send down His love and mercy to all, and I also pray that we will all stay strong in this journey to bring Islam back to its righteous place! May Jannah be our main goal, and let's all pray and work hard together to attain it -- TOGETHER. =)